Moving on....

It can be very hard to move on from something and it dosnt matter what it is. It can be something like moving out of the a house or something bigger like a death. Either way its painful ,and for the most part, unwelcomed. People tell us " oh, its time to move on" or to go along with or life, however it is very painful and alot of people dont understand this. During the time that people are telling us to move on from are mostly something life altering and is something that we cant just move on from. It takes time like every thing else. As a foster we may not face the death of our parents (at least not right away) but for the most part it is as if we did. We may be able to see our parents every once in a while and, even though none will ever admit it, that makes it harder. We are not able to move on. We see them like every other week for like a hour and then we get dragged away. Now thats when old wounds are opened back up. It would be terrible to never see our parents again and it would hurt as worse as it could, but then we would slowly recover. There would always be that sensation that something is missing from our lives. That feeling wont go away and im saying for a while it will feel like your heart is no longer there and that life will not matter, but it does. Your parents or whoever else will want you to move on. They will want you to have a life even if there not in it. They will want to rember a child who was active and funny in 20 years from now. They will want to hear about your child and all they accomplished and say " thats my grandchild" They will want to see that you go to college and to make a life out of your self. They will want to see that their life wasnt for nothing. That they brought some good to the world, even though they wernt there for it all. They will always love you in one way or another. If they dont say it and act completely different they still love you. Scientifically speaking, as soon as the parents know that they conceived they will form a special bond with the baby. Even if their not aware of it at the time, so live with love, live with perpose if not for yourself then for others