A new found attiude

As im sure you guys can see I have not written in a while and im sorry for that. The reason why is because I was hospitalized for my depression. I was in an mental institution for 2 weeks and their I connected with lots of diffrent people. I got to see that im not the only person who is going though what im going though. I worked on alot of skills that I can use to not only help with my depression but my anxiety as well.However as I got better they realized that I didnt need to be there any more so they let me out. Now I wish I was back in there but at the same time I know I cant hide from reality forever. So i went back to school. As I walked though the door I felt a sort of sudden dread. Granted I had spent months her, however I felt more scared then my first day here. I know that everyone knows were I was, but that wasnt what scared me. It was how I was gonna face what happend. I know that my true friends are worried and they "fake" friends would just talk about me nad make me feel bad. However none of that mattered at the moment, all that mattered was getting to my class. As i walked I saw familiar faces and then the room felt as though it was closing in on me. I felt dizzy due to the lack of oxygen flow to my brain. I felt as though I was gonna faint and I could do anything. I wanted to just lay down and sleep., but then I realized I chouldnt, im not gonna say that I didnt walk around all day in a daze, simply moving from class to class, and im not gonna say that those walls got any bigger that day, but I will say that the walls have stretched out in the weeks that fallowed. I am still depressed but I took one step towards healing and with one step comes another.