The closing walls

What happens when the walls start to crumble? What happens when the ceiling starts to push down on you, or the floor that so steady held you in the past crumbles beneath your feet? Its simple some might say, buy a bigger house, rebuild the floor. However what happens at that time you dont have money or tools? Well you just stay in the broken house until you can fix it. Now as im sure you can tell this a comparison to a panic attack. Lately I have been having more and more of them, They are mostly at school where the most triggers are however they happen at my house too. When they happen I cant breath, i feel dizzy and dont think straight. I more often then not dont talk and when I do Its fast and incoherent to most. I usually know when its gonna happen so I can usually control it, however alot of the times I am unable to use the tricks that the hosptile taught me. when i am able to feel the attack and im at my house i either go to the bathroom or my bedroom. I try to calm down within five minutes. My friends and other therapists say that thats not healthy because if something was to happen no one would know. This is especially concerning because I cant think when its happing. I know my triggers and thats good the next step everyone tells me is to get rid of my triggers but how do I do that? What if one of the things that causes my triggers is one of the things my world revolves around? I cant take away can I? Then I would be floating mindlessly in space into the deep dark hole. when the walls close down on me I can usually calmly take action but other times this can be difficult. Most of the times my lungs dont want to be lungs, my legs dont want to be legs and of course my brain dosnt feel as though its my own. Its as though every part of my body is working against each other instead of working in unity to keep the peace. Many people are afraid that they are having a heart attack and will die however with me I dont feel this. I know im having a panic attack and I know how to calm myself down like I said above however as they become more intense I feel that these common coping skills are becoming not useful of inadequacy for stopping the panic attacks and thats the case for those who dont seek treatment. I have been on the same anxiety meds for a very long time and up until recently it has proven affected now it is as though I have built up a sort of tolerance to this pacific med so i thinking of switching my meds to one that would be more effective toward me. This medicine might not be the bigger house you have wanted but it will provide you with shelter while you new home is being built and I dont know about you but im hoping for and upgrade.